Forgiveness

Do we forgive those who have hurt us?
The people who walk out when we need them the most.
Those who forget us when we are struggling.
Ones that look the other way when we reach out.

What about the times that they have tried to make amends?
The moments when you think that maybe things could change.
Times when it feels like the relationship can be fixed.
When both parties are willing to admit that they were at fault and move on.

Then, they are met only with a stonewall that neither party is willing to climb.
Where a compromise can never be met.
Blame is placed and responsibility is denied.
He claims no wrong doing.
She knows differently and places that blame inward.

When years go by and no words are exchanged.
The relationship continues to fall apart.
Each moves on with their lives without consideration of the other.
A thought is triggered and someone reaches out.
Contact is restablished.

Another discussion is had.
More walls are built.
Communication breaks down.
More years go by.
Memories and nightmares remain.

Then, an unexpected message asking for forgiveness.
He acknowledges that maybe help is needed.
She is left asking why now?
Why not a year ago?
What's the point?

Will it help alleviate the pain that's been caused?
Are answers finally going to be given?
Would it change anything?
Does it really matter?

Words have already been said.
Feelings have been hurt.
The damage has been done.
One has been left a broken person,
Because she has placed all the blame on herself.

So, should she forgive him?
She spends days debating the answer.
Ruminating on thoughts and feelings.
Then, she gets an answer:

The person that she should forgive is herself.